“Jo,” he said.
“Yes,” she
said.
“Happy
birthday, Sweetheart,” he said.
Oh. That. Had
he bought me a gift? Had I opened it already? I wasn’t paying attention, Jo
realized. Lately she didn’t pay as much attention as she used to – not to her
husband, and sometimes not to herself either. But he kept smiling, and Joanne
felt she had to say something in order to get him to stop. Otherwise, this
could simply go on indefinitely.
“Thank you,
Sweetheart,” she said. This didn’t work. His smile only got bigger. He must be
in pain, Jo surmised, using muscles in his face that have long lain dormant.
Joanne thought
about leaving the room, escaping, but for the moment couldn’t remember what other rooms
stood nearby. What were the choices? Maybe there were none. Perhaps they had
just this one room. Nonsense, what home has just a kitchen?
“You are so
beautiful, Jo,” the man said, surprising her again, and making her wonder if
perhaps this wasn’t her husband after all. He certainly spoke in a manner very different from that of her husband. But no, this has to be her husband. And something is wrong. He must be injured. Perhaps he’s
dying. That must be it. And didn’t she see him taking a pill earlier? Medicine
momentarily postponing the inevitable?
“How long do
you have?” she heard herself ask.
“All night,”
the man said. And his smile somehow grew even wider.
Well, just one night, and then this would be over, and she could get back to whatever it was she’d been doing thirty-two years ago, before she’d gotten into this mess.
Well, just one night, and then this would be over, and she could get back to whatever it was she’d been doing thirty-two years ago, before she’d gotten into this mess.
But now this
man, her husband, stood up before her and held out his hand. She could see no
other option but to place her hand in his, and suddenly she was on her feet
too, and he was leading her out of this room, out of the kitchen, and, as she’d
guessed, there were other rooms. And the room to which he took her was the
bedroom. All at once she recalled what she’d been doing thirty-two years ago,
because she found herself doing it again, and this man was not yet her husband.
He was her boyfriend, her lover. He was the man who took her in his arms and
made the world melt away, and he did that for her now. Everything around her
disappeared and she saw clearly what was really important, for it was all that
remained.
“I love you,
Jo,” he now said.
“I love you,
Raymond.”
It was a truth she knew she could hold onto, at least for a little while.
It was a truth she knew she could hold onto, at least for a little while.
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